The holidays were wonderful and it is almost a month since we've seen or heard. You know when I got home and run away while I did not know much about you. Now I'm sure you're back and we are both in this city that is slowly becoming populated, but neither is the first step to call, to be alive.
When I was away I was fine, of course I used to think of you sometimes but your picture was faded and did not make me suffer. This week I tried not to think away with your boyfriend (your first real vacation "alone") and I believe I was good at not hurting me. In these past three days have amplified my uncertainties, everything started crossing the front door and returning to the daily routine.
Now I feel a bit confused, I feel the need to finally go and see a bit of time with you but I also feel that it is just not see you. In a way it seems to me that my situation has improved and I'm afraid that seeing you with him again and that makes me sink again.
Sometimes I happen to call my name (I hope not to get mad) about to shake from one thought to wake up and open their eyes to this, I refer to be well connected to the life that flows in and out of limbo that confuses me and I numb. Sometimes I think I have become cold and numb, I feel that makes it imperative not to lose something I love on the street. I am convinced that you will not be the last I really loved that person and that gives me relief, have to be so.
I do not have a big push to renew our friendship, it's as if I was afraid to turn the switch and shed light on us to discover how beautiful you are and how much I love you, I would like to loosen a bit in order to prevent the lampandina your intervention and possibly screw it back later when the time comes.
When I was away I was fine, of course I used to think of you sometimes but your picture was faded and did not make me suffer. This week I tried not to think away with your boyfriend (your first real vacation "alone") and I believe I was good at not hurting me. In these past three days have amplified my uncertainties, everything started crossing the front door and returning to the daily routine.
Now I feel a bit confused, I feel the need to finally go and see a bit of time with you but I also feel that it is just not see you. In a way it seems to me that my situation has improved and I'm afraid that seeing you with him again and that makes me sink again.
Sometimes I happen to call my name (I hope not to get mad) about to shake from one thought to wake up and open their eyes to this, I refer to be well connected to the life that flows in and out of limbo that confuses me and I numb. Sometimes I think I have become cold and numb, I feel that makes it imperative not to lose something I love on the street. I am convinced that you will not be the last I really loved that person and that gives me relief, have to be so.
I do not have a big push to renew our friendship, it's as if I was afraid to turn the switch and shed light on us to discover how beautiful you are and how much I love you, I would like to loosen a bit in order to prevent the lampandina your intervention and possibly screw it back later when the time comes.
